hey IT'S IZZY, FROM THE BULLETIN listen I'M SORRY FOR SETTING YOU THE FUCK OFF i was
[There's a pause here.]
OUT OF LINE even if i meant to talk i shouldn't have made threat like it could be otherwise I AIN'T HAPPY WITH WASPFIRE but you have to understand MY MOIRAIL FACED THAT TORTURE FOR TWO THOUSAND SWEEPS and the one what brought him there WAS ME i got angry BUT I PROMISE i don't want to hurt nobody
THANK YOU FOR LETTING SHIT SETTLE AS WHERE IT DID.
I believe you that you don't really want to hurt anyone!
But Waspfire doesn't know that. I mean, I know you say you don't, but anybody can say they don't and still hurt people. And she's really, really scared of you. I think it's because of your color and not because you're you in particular? But she's still scared. She wouldn't even leave her house hive when you did the circus day.
So when you got all threatening I had to go on the defensive because even if you weren't going to do anything she had to know that I'd protect her.
I'm really glad I don't have to Supreme Thunder your face, though.
it's probably a little bit to do with my being who i am MY FUTURE HOLDS ME AS BEING CALLED THE GRAND HIGHBLOOD i cull a lot of people AND HURT A WHOLE LOT MORE she's got right to be afraid
THE WORLD THEY BROUGHT ME TO the capitol A LOT OF PEOPLE GOT TO HELPING ME they got me to change TO BE BETTER but the real reason i can promise i wouldn't hurt nobody is that THEY MADE ME THIS THING WHAT'S CALLED AN AVOX it's THE ONLY WAY I COULD DESCRIBE IS you ain't a person anymore YOU DO AS YOUR TOLD no matter what AND IT'S ALL FEAR ALL THE WAY IN AND OUT an avox can't cull not even to save someone's life AN AVOX WHAT WERE TO TRY WOULD FEEL A WHOLE LOT OF MOTHERFUCKING ILL AFTER THE ATTEMPTING i don't want to hurt anybody BUT I CAN'T HURT ANYBODY NONE EITHER it's a bit of a relief, truth said AT LEAST I'M CERTAIN SUCH WOULD BE THE CASE UNLESS LIKE... fuck, i don't even know IT WOULD PROBABLY HAVE TO BE SOMETHING PRETTY DAMN BAD like homies hunting down everyone here and as what i know MAYBE
thanks for not hitting lightening up at this face of mine, i guess
I understand a little. The place I was before, the Keeper's Manse in Arcadia, was like that for us. We weren't really people either for most of the time I was there. Then the Keeper disappeared and we started becoming more like people again because he (she?) wasn't there anymore. We started acting outside of what the Keeper wanted us doing, even though Mason (the house) tried to get us to stop that and do our work again.
But the Keeper didn't stop me from being able to hurt people, because my job there was to make sure the others in my wing did their work. And if they didn't I was supposed to punish them.
He'd only been vanished a few days when I came here. So I was still used to being like that. It took me a while to figure out I could be anything else.
I didn't know that there were other people like us that weren't Changelings.
IT PROBABLY STILL AIN'T EXACTLY ALIKE we still look like what we is IT'S JUST HOW WE'RE MADE TO THINK AS LIKE WE'RE ITEMS and how others see us same ONLY DIFFERENCE PHSYICAL UNLESS OUR MASTERS ALTER US is they cut our tongues and silence our vocals SO WE CAN'T NEVER SPEAK AGAIN we can get a little better if away from our masters though, like you did THE VOICE PART WE CAN'T GET BACK not unless they's lucky LIKE I WAS
would say helmsing is something like it, actually STILL DIFFERENT IN ITS WAYS just as being a changeling was for you BUT I GUESS IN THE END SLAVES IS SLAVES IS MOTHERFUCKING SLAVES
i ain't sure what to do for waspfire I WANT THIS SHIT SETTLED but if she's afraid of me... AND I STILL GOT TO STAND BY MY MOIRAIL
I'd tell her they did something to you so you couldn't kill people, except I don't know if she'd believe me and it sounds like you probably want to keep that a secret.
Maybe I can figure out some way of showing her you're not someone to be afraid of anyway. I don't know how yet. But there must be something...
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Date: 2016-01-29 04:26 am (UTC)IT'S IZZY, FROM THE BULLETIN
listen
I'M SORRY FOR SETTING YOU THE FUCK OFF
i was
[There's a pause here.]
OUT OF LINE
even if i meant to talk i shouldn't have made threat like it could be otherwise
I AIN'T HAPPY WITH WASPFIRE
but you have to understand
MY MOIRAIL FACED THAT TORTURE FOR TWO THOUSAND SWEEPS
and the one what brought him there
WAS ME
i got angry
BUT I PROMISE
i don't want to hurt nobody
THANK YOU FOR LETTING SHIT SETTLE AS WHERE IT DID.
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Date: 2016-01-29 04:42 am (UTC)But Waspfire doesn't know that. I mean, I know you say you don't, but anybody can say they don't and still hurt people. And she's really, really scared of you. I think it's because of your color and not because you're you in particular? But she's still scared. She wouldn't even leave her
househive when you did the circus day.So when you got all threatening I had to go on the defensive because even if you weren't going to do anything she had to know that I'd protect her.
I'm really glad I don't have to Supreme Thunder your face, though.
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Date: 2016-01-29 04:53 am (UTC)MY FUTURE HOLDS ME AS BEING CALLED THE GRAND HIGHBLOOD
i cull a lot of people
AND HURT A WHOLE LOT MORE
she's got right to be afraid
THE WORLD THEY BROUGHT ME TO
the capitol
A LOT OF PEOPLE GOT TO HELPING ME
they got me to change
TO BE BETTER
but the real reason i can promise i wouldn't hurt nobody is that
THEY MADE ME THIS THING WHAT'S CALLED AN AVOX
it's
THE ONLY WAY I COULD DESCRIBE IS
you ain't a person anymore
YOU DO AS YOUR TOLD
no matter what
AND IT'S ALL FEAR ALL THE WAY IN AND OUT
an avox can't cull not even to save someone's life
AN AVOX WHAT WERE TO TRY WOULD FEEL A WHOLE LOT OF MOTHERFUCKING ILL AFTER THE ATTEMPTING
i don't want to hurt anybody
BUT I CAN'T HURT ANYBODY NONE EITHER
it's a bit of a relief, truth said
AT LEAST I'M CERTAIN SUCH WOULD BE THE CASE UNLESS LIKE...
fuck, i don't even know
IT WOULD PROBABLY HAVE TO BE SOMETHING PRETTY DAMN BAD
like homies hunting down everyone here and as what i know
MAYBE
thanks for not hitting lightening up at this face of mine, i guess
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Date: 2016-01-29 05:21 am (UTC)I understand a little. The place I was before, the Keeper's Manse in Arcadia, was like that for us. We weren't really people either for most of the time I was there. Then the Keeper disappeared and we started becoming more like people again because he (she?) wasn't there anymore. We started acting outside of what the Keeper wanted us doing, even though Mason (the house) tried to get us to stop that and do our work again.
But the Keeper didn't stop me from being able to hurt people, because my job there was to make sure the others in my wing did their work. And if they didn't I was supposed to punish them.
He'd only been vanished a few days when I came here. So I was still used to being like that. It took me a while to figure out I could be anything else.
I didn't know that there were other people like us that weren't Changelings.
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Date: 2016-01-29 05:31 am (UTC)we still look like what we is
IT'S JUST HOW WE'RE MADE TO THINK AS LIKE WE'RE ITEMS
and how others see us same
ONLY DIFFERENCE PHSYICAL UNLESS OUR MASTERS ALTER US
is they cut our tongues and silence our vocals
SO WE CAN'T NEVER SPEAK AGAIN
we can get a little better if away from our masters though, like you did
THE VOICE PART WE CAN'T GET BACK
not unless they's lucky
LIKE I WAS
would say helmsing is something like it, actually
STILL DIFFERENT IN ITS WAYS
just as being a changeling was for you
BUT I GUESS IN THE END SLAVES IS SLAVES IS MOTHERFUCKING SLAVES
i ain't sure what to do for waspfire
I WANT THIS SHIT SETTLED
but if she's afraid of me...
AND I STILL GOT TO STAND BY MY MOIRAIL
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Date: 2016-01-29 05:54 am (UTC)Maybe I can figure out some way of showing her you're not someone to be afraid of anyway. I don't know how yet. But there must be something...
I'm going to think about it, all right?
(And I have to stand by my girl. So I get it.)